I feel like I'm at cross roads right now. Or maybe it's just the stress. It seems that nothing I achieved feels important. Maybe I get a shear second of happiness, and then it passes, I go back to feeling numb. I was quite unhappy and unappreciated at my last job, so I left. Now I have a feeling that I made a mistake, but the problem is I couldn't have known that beforehand. Salary is double what I used to make better conditions. I thought to myself that it'll be worth it. When I spoke with the manager he told me that there will be plenty of opportunity to grow. Fast forward to present day, there are guys that are still working there after 5 years, no advancement, isn't that a fucking surprise. I feel that the 12 hour shifts are going to kill me someday. I don't have time to learn new stuff anymore (IT), don't have time to train and my sleep is pretty hectic.
All in all, I'm not happy at all with the choices I made, and it's only me I get to blame. FU I thought money solved everything